Result OUT...!!!

Today 15/08/08 2.27a.m

I can't sleep...so i plan to write a blog here!!!
Today after i work...1st thing when back home on9 n check my result....but haven't out yet!!!
that time i already very nervous n feel scare!! Result haven't out then nvm lo...then i try to do something so make myself not nervous!!
wat i do is on9 msn chat with gf n frens....but nth to talk then try to play some game....but no mood to play n talk also....then i go watch Olympic game .
after tat i feel nth to watch also then when back my room to watch movie.

After 12a.m i was watching movie in the internet....it was very relax n started feel sleepy. Then
my phone rang...is my frens call me!!
he ask me to check my result cos....he think at UK there 5p.m is Malaysia 12 or 1a.m.
Then i go on9 n check n also help my frens to check his result also.....

When i press my ID number n PIN n then i saw the result......
i cant believe......i retake 2 paper , there r visual optic n anatomy...
when i look at my result...i was totally no mood n feel wan to bang the wall...
cos i PASS my ANATOMY but i FAIL my VISUAL OPTIC....!!!!!
i thought i will pass my visual optic....cos i feel that i do well in the paper but not anatomy!!!
unbelievable!!!!!!

When i know my result then i help my frens to check his result...but he very good...PASS all!!! he retake 4 paper.....but me 2 paper also like tat!!!haih!!
how come i so stupid....i fail this paper 2 time already n this is the 3rd time!!!
do u think is very hard???
do u think is not the paper hard is....me stupid??
retake so many time already still fail!!!!

When i know my result i was speechless for few min....
after tat i call my gf....i feel very sorry to disturb her from her sweet dream!!!
she is a good gf.....every time i feel sad, she will listen to me!!!
cos i dont wan disturb her sweet dream then i keep ask her go to sleep....

i think i cant sleep well tonight!!!!
izit i didnt study hard?
izit im lazy?
izit im stupid??
my mind keep come out this kind of question!!!
n i dunno how to tell my parent....i feel sad!!!
very down n no mood!!!